Jealous of the Angels

This photo here is an old one, and one I don’t want to just fade away. Long before Flickr enforced the pro accounts to post moderate or restricted photos. For almost 5 years, this photo sat there, nothing said, nothing done about it. Yes, I was pro for a few years to continue posting my photos. However, earlier this year, changes happened in my life and I couldn’t justify paying their fee to post my more adult photos for SL right now. I started to move them to Primfeed, and only was posting safe photos on Flickr.

Apparently, I found out when you stop your pro account with Flickr, they are extremely unhappy. They immediately suspended my account for violating their safety rules. So I started to go through cleaning up to remove any photos that were deemed “unsafe” I did repeated requests to have my account unsuspended to be told this photo or that one still violated their rules. Fine, whatever, I removed them even if there was nothing really wrong with them…..then they sent me this photo and said it violated their “safety rules”. With a heavy heart, I removed the photo and proceeded to email them once again to ask them to lift the suspension. Also, informing them that I was going to at some point renew my pro account, but since they felt I had to pay to post this photo there, or remove it. I told them I would not ever renew my account with them, and explained to them what this photo represented. I know they don’t care. In the end, I wiped all my photos from Flickr and will not post anymore.

This photo was taken in memory of the love of my life, and was in my life for almost 20 years. The man I had married at one point, had a child with, the man who was trying to make his way back home to us…had suddenly passed away across the nation at the age of 49. My world was shattered, my best friend and the man who held my heart was suddenly gone. I was unable to tell him goodbye, I was robbed of that by someone…so this photo, it was my way of processing my grief, of telling him goodbye for now, and my way of remembering him in SL since we both were there. So now I am posting it on other social media sites because I will not let it disappear. This all hurts even worse as it hits this month brings the 5-year anniversary of his passing, and I find myself grieving again because of this photo. shrugs

Oh, and flicker? Yeah, they unsuspended my account after I wiped it, but it’s ok. I am more than happy to post my photos else where to share my creativity.